As this year comes to an end how can i not write about something that has changed my life. My mother left us on 26.08.2014. She had been suffering and had lost all the charm for life, didn’t had any desire to live. so, the almighty heard her prayers and called her to be with him. Same date but month of june and year 2012 i lost my father. life without parents is tough but without a mother its tougher. A mother is someone who comes to know about your feeling without being told. she understands you without being spoken. you won’t get a stronger shoulder to rely upon. I never thought i will become so weak after losing her. I have to fight back each day to be stronger. I am still trying to come back. i am becoming stronger each day and a little insensitive also, i don’t know whether it is good or bad for me, but things don’t influence me much now. let things happen if they have to happen. This is my current state, this is how i am. I don’t know what type of person i will become in future, future is so so unpredictable.
Two people who are the life and breath of my life have helped to me be alive and survive they are my HUSBAND and DAUGHTER. my baby gets more credit because she is with me the whole day the time when i feel sad, the time when i feel happy, being so small but seeing and getting reprimanded so often, when i feel happy i love her and when i feel lonely i scold her, i know at times i might be wrong but those are the times i can’t help and it is just me and her together. My only aim in life left is to be a good mother or the best mother on earth, again i don’t know how successful i would be but i want to give it my best shot and i am trying for it also. As motherhood doesn’t comes easy, but no excuses i have to play this role to its best. I have not been satisfied with myself in my role as a daughter, i don’t want to feel the same as for being a mother. When i leave the planet i want to feel satisfied and contented that yes i have done all my duties of a mother to its best, and yes i was the best mother.
My mother had been the best mom for me. she taught me what is required the most in this life to survive and that is independence. she made me independent. she gave me the freedom to make choices but kept a close watch as to what choices i am making. she always supported the truth and took the stride for right. these qualities have helped me in being what i am. whatever comes my way i can’t let go my ethics now, i strongly stand for what is right, and these qualities i have got from my mom.
I always use to say as a child that i love my DAD more but now when i don’t have them both by my side i have come to know that i love both of them equally, but it is much difficult for me live without my mom.
In Hindu mythology they say that father is like a sky who protects you always and mother is like earth who helps you survive always. it is very true.
Love your parents and above all love yourself because you are the one who has come from them. you, yourself, the soul is the most important person.
love yourself and be the change you want to see in others. nothing is permanent everything has to change, change is the most evident truth, accept it and move on, as i have i have accepted my parents are no longer with me but they are inside me forever and ever.…..